Lately I’ve been thinking of how quickly these weeks seem to be going by. It seems like only yesterday that I was freaking out about the ACT being in April, and now that day is actually here. Tomorrow. When this week is over, soon the ACS project ( a huge group project for American Cultural Studies) will be history, then my senior pictures will be taken, school will be over, and I will start working for more than fifty hours a week on my dad’s organic farm. Then….in less than four months from now I will be flying over the Pacific Ocean to land in Tokyo!!
It’s depressing to think that everything I’ve ever known in my whole life will be over in such a short time. Last night I was staring at my room while lying on my bed, thinking that it is so surreal that I will never see or sleep in my room for a whole year next year. But the feeling of adventure and excitement propels me forward. I feel like, for once in my life, I am truly ready for something.
But I have to get through this one important week of my life this week before I really start to obsess over anything and everything about my future. I am going to take the ACT tomorrow at school, a PSAE on Thursday, and a SAT on Saturday. I used to really worry about what I could get on the ACT, but right now I just want to do the very best that I can. Hopefully I will get scores that will please both me and the rest of my family, but that doesn’t matter that much to me anymore. Sure, I want to get the best scores I possibly can, but my life does not depend on or change because of one small test score. The test I’m not very prepared for is the SAT. I haven’t gone over the test in detail, so I might not get the score I want, but that also does not matter so much. I just want to be happy with my life 🙂
But it does seem like everything is happening this week and next week. For example, this Saturday is Prom. Then next Tuesday is the ACS Project performance, then Wednesday I am planning to go with my parents to check out Mizzou. Hopefully I will get to tour the Journalism School and see if they would give me any scholarships. My older brother Asa is coming home from Alabama on Saturday or Sunday.
I am so lucky to have such a happy life…with loving people all around. I want to treasure these moments with them as much as possible 🙂
Aozora Brockman 